i believe you don't actually lose unless you give up. but right now i'm giving up, i've lost. there's nothing else i can do. i have screwed up so big that i can't see my way out of it. one of my really good friends hates me. and its totally and completely my fault. i can't keep acting like there is something i can do to fix this situation i have brought myself into. because there is nothing left. no way out. i've hit a dead end and i can't even turn around to walk back out. so i'm giving up. i've lost the fight. its over.
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I'm sorry you are going through this. If you ever need to talk just shoot me a message on Facebook. I'll be praying for you
Em...it's not over because you KNOW you've messed up...Itt's only hopeless when you don't care or you aren't teachable...Right now...there's no where to go but up. Remember...real friends can blow it...and repent...and do there best to make restitution...and somehow...real friends end up finding their way back into eachothers lives.
I am hoping that with every mistake or wrong turn you make...you endeavor to rechart your course and not repeat the process...
you know how i know there is no way to go but up? becuase i'm so far down. and i've done my best to repent. i've told both boys i'm sorry sooo many times. and there's nothing else i can say or do. padderik just keeps asking what he did wrong and why i don't like him and jake keeps telling me i screwed up and i played him. there's nothing more i can do or say to either of them.
That sucks. I hate feeling like that. I have been there too, I can tell you though that things get better even if they don't end up like the way we think it should.
(hugs))
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